Wednesday, 03 February 2010

  • Broken

    Does power flow though your body when you slam her to the wall?
    Do you feel masculine to see her bruised and broken on the floor?
    Justify your actions by assuming she is unfaithful,
    But faith is all she ever had in you.
    Her hopes, her prayers...
    That one day the alcohol might wear off
    You would eventually wipe her blood away and apologize
    But tonight you can just hold her face to the ground
    "You dirty slut! Whore, SAY IT! Say you are a whore! We all know you sleep with each man you see!"
    Truth be told she is lying awake alone,
    Waiting on your drunken phone call
    "Sweetheart, will you pick me up so I may smack you around until one of us passes out, then in the morning let's pretend this never happened."
    Of course my dear...
    Anything for you, love.

Thursday, 21 January 2010

  • Confused

    Have you ever been at a stage in your life where you have no idea where you are going from here, or where you even want to go for that matter? I think that has one of the absolute worst feelings... I mean it seems like most people at least have a vision of what they want for their future, but as for me I don't have one and it is driving me crazy, the only thing I know that I do want is that I want to find a good man, & start a family (how cliché) But that is not a guarantee, and I know that I can't just wait around wishing for that to happen eventually.

    I need to figure out what I want career wise and become and independent woman, I am just so scared that i will start on something and find out that I don't like it as much as I thought I would, and then I have wasted all this time and money on classes or whatnot. I think I want to do something in design (fashion design, interior design.. something of that sort) but I am afraid of that too because in jobs like that you generally need to be in a big city to be successful, I have never lived in a big city, I've barely even visited one (I have been to Orlando, Denver, Chicago, and St. Louis... All of those probably equals up to about a month's worth of big city life.) What if I couldn't survive in one? Or maybe I should just make the jump and do it hoping for the best, sometimes in life you have to take chances, and I understand that.. I just feel like if I am going to take that big of a step it should be for something I am really passionate about, and while I do love design, art, and being creative, do I love it enough to pursue it? I have no experience in these fields other than watching shows about it on tv and doing a few sketches on note paper.

    Why couldn't I have been one of those kids who had a vision in mind when they were young and kept up with it until it came time for college and actually gone through with it? When I was a kid I remember wanting to be a Veterinarian, because I love animals, but that dream went out the door when I had to watch both my dog and my cat be put to sleep, I couldn't handle doing that (even if it is in the best interest for the animal.) So that is not an option.

    I feel like my time is running out to figure this stuff out, Yes I am only 20 but the years go by so quickly and before I know it I will be another 10 years older and still stuck in this rut if I don't start working on it now, a lot of my peers are already over half way through college and I haven't even decided what to do with my life yet... I wish there were a button I could push that would tell me what I would be best at and happiest doing, if only life were that simple.

Tuesday, 05 January 2010

  • The past

    When the thought struck me to write this blog it started because I am watching "the michael jackson chronicles" on the fuse network, which is basically just a bunch of old MJ videos with a short background story on them in the middle, I started out to write about how much the music industry has changed in the past few decades, which i will touch on, but it just amazes me how much the way of just life in general has changed.. Given I am only 20 years old so I can't rightly say that life was so much simpler in the 70's, 80's.. etc. However I do remember the 90's pretty clearly, and maybe things just seemed better because I was a child during that decade but hearing stories about the past makes me grieve for the future, it seems like in the past 10 years or so things have gone so down hill, at least with America, perhaps you can blame it on 9/11, war, what have you.. but it is just so scary to think that if things keep up at this pace, what will the world be like by the time I am 40? I can't even perceive what the world might be like in the year 2030, and in a selfish way I almost wish I had been born earlier, maybe in the 60's rather than the 80's. But that is a very selfish and unrealistic wish.

    Back to the reason I began writing this, music. it makes me sick how a lot of todays music is based on superficial things, cars, money, drugs, & sex, and when you watch the music videos or go to a show the so called "artists" don't even put on a show or have any choreography , they just sway back and forth to digitally created beats... What happened to instruments? what happened to poetry in lyrics? Have we forgotten about talent? Or is it really all about just getting a catchy beat to put in the clubs? I have gotten to the point where I don't even use the radio in my car because the only thing you ever hear on the top forty stations is this talentless "music".. I would have more respect for these artists if they would leave out the lyrics completely, and play only that club friendly beat... If the music is meant for dancing then why do you need mindless lyrics? If you are going to write lyrics write about something with meaning, not about how many millions of dollars you spent on your grill.

    Here's a pretty good example:
    [VERSE 1 - Lil Wayne]
    I go by "Wheezy: the Don"
    Magnificent nigga, lot of ice around my neck, and freezin' the arm
    And if a nigga decide to test, their chest get completely took off
    And if you wonder who the fuck (?)
    (?) we so sip
    It's like ain't nothin' but we gotta squab
    On the block everyday sellin' rocks and shit
    Choppin' bricks - give the damn cops a dick
    We cop a whip and drop a brick - that's how we do it
    Weed, liquor, money, and guns how we do it
    Freak bitch to swallow cum like fluid
    Who it be? Through his feet, Dubbs
    Ain't nothin' sweet 'cause I can't keep trust
    Lil' nigga - worth well over a mill, nigga
    Real nigga - come around and show up where you live, nigga
    Pullin' out the K's, nigga - (??) and all
    Wayne 'bout to damage your home
    Nigga 'bout to go to see the man in the stars
    Hoppin' out the van with bandanas and all
    Cannons went off
    News cameras takin' pictures of your family when your avenue's gone
    Damn, it's a shame how the bullets slammed in your brain
    How the ice slammed the pain, rammin' your dame
    That's because she ran into the game
    Nigga, stop playin' with Lil Wayne
    Come on!

    ...This is supposed to be art? What happened to poetry, art, grammar for that matter? Shouldn't it take more talent than this to become famous?

Thursday, 10 December 2009

  • Frustration

    Have you ever just been so frustrated with your life you just simply did not know what to do? Right now I am frustrated because I feel like I am stuck in a rut. Single for nearly a year now, stuck in a dead-end job, no money for college... and Did I mention single for almost a year?

    Maybe the "single" part shouldn't be so big of an issue, I shouldn't need a man to make me happy right? but why is it that I've always felt like I did? As I've mentioned before I do not believe in being with a person just because you like the idea of being "in love" when in reality you aren't really in love with that person at all, just in love with the idea of a relationship. However I do seek true, pure, honest love, I want that more than anything..I realize it is not something you can just wish into existence, it's something that takes time and effort... I just wonder when my time will come? I thought my time had come but that ended up leaving me bruised and beaten on the floor, but hey that is a whole other issue.

    Or have you ever felt like you found the perfect person but circumstances will not allow anything to bloom from it? To be truthful that is where I am right now, I won't go into details but I really feel like I may have found my "one" but with the way things are at the time there is no way we could go anywhere with it, maybe saying he could be "the one" is a bit much, it's not that I know him inside and out, it's just this feeling I have. It is such a frustrating feeling thinking that maybe you've found someone who could be perfect with you but because of the way things are you may never find out just how perfect, or how horribly un-perfect it could turn out, when all you want is that chance to find out. Coming across a situation like this I feel like I should leave my self open for him just in case things could work, but with the high chances that they won't the smart thing to do is to just forget about it and move on with my life, but doing the "smart thing" isn't always easy, or maybe it is and I am just making it a lot more complicated than it needs to be.

    Or maybe I am just feeling like an old maid.

Sunday, 22 November 2009

  • Dining out

    DISCLAIMER:
    The fallowing is my own personal views and not necessarily the views of the company I work for or any other. No ill intentions are meant toward any individuals or any particular corporation

    I am a server, and as a server I come across all kinds of people, the sweethearts, the crazies, the ones who think you are their personal servant, the oldies who believe 10% is a WONDERFUL tip, the welfare families who come out to eat every time they get a check and somehow can afford a $20 steak but cannot afford a tip, the couples who cannot control their children and therefore you have to get everything to them before their kids break every eardrum in the house.. etc etc.

    So basically this blog is going to be all about etiquette when it comes to eating out and how to tip your server properly.

    For those of you who think it is okay NOT to tip, or to tip less than 15%.. it's time for a wakeup call. Your server makes anywhere between $2 and $5 per hour, if they make more than $5 they are VERY lucky to be working where they are. The reason to government allows our employers to pay us so much less than minimum wage is because we are expected to make TIPS, the government also taxes us on these tips and that money comes directly out of our paycheck. (after taxes a paycheck for me is usually around $80, on a 40 hour week)
    The way it works is this; lets just say I sold $500 for the company during a shift, that means the government expects that I made at least 10% on each table, so I am taxed for $50 worth of tips (10% of 500 =50) but if one table stiffs me (doesn't tip) that means I may have only made $40 but still am being taxed as if I made $50. Know what that means? come on now people... The table who decided I wasn't worth their spare change has actually just CHARGED me for waiting on them, thats right! I PAID to wait on that table! Pretty screwy huh?
    And let's not forget about tipping out, your server may to have appeared to be the only person who waited on you, but in a lot of restaurants there are bus boys who cleaned your table when you left, the bar who made your drinks, the food runner who brought your food to you (or to your server if they happened to be busy when it came up) and various other "helpers" who I am expected to tip out, so even if I do make my $50 I may only leave with $30 because I have to "tip out" to all of the above said. And if you are in a restaurant who does not have all those extra staff that means your server is doing all of those jobs on top of serving you and probably deserves a little extra anyway.
    SO basically here is a little guide on how to tip:

    10% : Service was HORRIBLE, no refills, cold food, never checks on you, unfriendly service, given your server was obviously NOT busy. This is the bare minimum you should EVER tip!

    15%: un-personable but your food is hot and your drinks are filled, checks back maybe once.

    20%: Good service, makes sure you are taken care of all the way around

    25% Outstanding service, goes above and beyond

    There are exceptions to the rule as well, if your meal was inexpensive but you still had great service you may want to go higher than 20%, a $2 tip on a $10 meal is great percentage wise but it's still only $2.. It wouldn't kill you to throw a 5 to your server in a case like this.
    Also, if you have extended your stay that means your server is missing out on tables while you sit there after you have finished your meal, it's okay to sit and enjoy yourself as long as you'd like, but tip accordingly, at least an extra 15% for every hour after you have finished eating

    And last but not least please keep in mind that your server is human, please use a little common sense and kindness toward them, chances are they have been on their feet for several hours and they are just trying to make an honest living, do not look down upon them because they may not have a prestigious position, there is most likely a reason.. Maybe they have had a few tough breaks in life, or maybe they are just starting out on their own.. Whatever the case may be please be aware that it is definitely not an easy job, so please be pleasant toward them.

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